September 13, 1904 – True donation is to keep one’s will
sacrificed continuously; this is a martyrdom of continuous
attention that the soul makes for God.
As I was in my usual state, after I struggled very much
He made Himself seen clasped to me, holding my heart in His
hands; and fixing on me, He told me: “My daughter, when a
soul has given Me her will, she is no longer free to do what
she pleases, otherwise it would not be a true donation. On
the other hand, true donation is to keep one’s will sacrificed
continuously to the One to whom it had already been given;
and this is a martyrdom of continuous attention that the soul
makes for God. What would you say of a martyr who today
offers himself to suffer any kind of pain, and tomorrow draws
back? You would say that he did not have true disposition
for martyrdom, and that one day or another he will end up
denying his faith.
So I say to the soul who does not let Me do
what I please with her will, but now gives it to Me, and now
draws it back: ‘Daughter, you are not disposed to sacrifice
and martyr yourself for Me, because true martyrdom consists
in continuity. You may call yourself resigned, conformed,
but not a martyr; and one day or another you may end up
withdrawing from Me, reducing everything to a child’s
game.’ Therefore, be attentive, and leave Me full freedom to
do with you as I best please.”
L Piccarreta
Book of Heaven, vol 6