What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, if he loses his soul?1 These words of Jesus went deep into the soul of St. Francis Xavier and led him to a radical change of life.
What good would all the treasures of this life be, if we let the essential pass by? What would we want successes and applause, triumphs and prizes, if in the end we did not find God? All would have been deceit, waste of time: the most complete failure. Javier understood the value of his soul and of the souls of others, and Christ became the true center of his life. From then on, his zeal for souls was "a passionate impatience. " He felt in his soul the uncontrollable urge to save the whole world and was ready to give his life to win souls for Christ.
The holy impatience that consumed St. Francis' heart made him write, when he was already in the Far East, these words that express well what his life was: "... and the native Christians, deprived of priests, know only that they are Christians. There is no one to celebrate Mass for them, no one to teach them the Creed, the Our Father ... That's why, since I've arrived here, I haven't given myself a moment's rest: I've dedicated myself to going around the villages, to baptizing the children who hadn't yet received this sacrament. In this way, I purified a huge number of children who, as they say, could not distinguish their right hand from their left. The children would not let me recite the Divine Office, nor eat nor rest, until I taught them a prayer.
The Saint contemplated, as we do today, the immense panorama of so many people who have no one to speak to them about God. The words of the Lord continue to be a reality in our days: The harvest is plentiful and the workers are few5. This made him write to Javier, with a heart full of holy zeal: "Many, in these places, are not Christians, simply because there is no one to make them so. Many times I feel like going through Universities of Europe, mainly that of Paris, and start shouting everywhere, like someone who has lost his senses, in order to impel those who possess more science than charity, with these words: "Oh, how many souls, because of your laziness, are excluded from Heaven and fall into hell!
"If only they would put on this matter the same interest that they put on their studies! In this way they could give an account to God of their science and talents entrusted to them. Many of them, moved by these considerations and by meditation on divine things, would exercise themselves in listening to the divine voice that speaks in them and, leaving aside their human ambitions and business, would dedicate themselves entirely to the will and desire of God, saying with their heart: Lord, here I am; what do you want me to do? Send me wherever You wish, even to India.
6 This same zeal must burn in our hearts. But ordinarily the Lord wants us to exercise it where we are: in the family, in the midst of work, with our friends and colleagues. "Missionary. -Dreams of being a missionary. You have Xavier-like vibrations: and you want to conquer for Christ an empire: Japan, China, India, Russia..., the cold peoples of Northern Europe, or America, or Africa, or Australia?
"Encourage those fires in your heart, those famines of souls. But do not forget that you are more missionary "obeying". Geographically far from those fields of apostolate, you work "here" and "there": don't you feel, like Xavier, your tired arm after administering baptism to so many? . How many people with pagan hearts and souls we find in our streets and squares, in the University, in commerce, in politics
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