*Choosing Me


One thing is most certain. When I love, it is perfect and infinite love. It is love that
no one can describe. No one can truly understand My Love. It just is now and
forever more. I want you to know this love as intimately as is possible for a human
being to know and still live on this earth. 

You have just scratched the surface of My Most Sacred Heart. I want you to come 
even closer. I know you are impertinent enough to do so. 
(Don't apologize for your impertinence. I kind of like it!)

When you lean on Me, as you are doing tonight, you touch My Heart so deeply for
I know how hard it is for you to ever lean on anybody or anything. Well, those days
are gone forever, Mr. Hard Heart! You are leaning so hard on Me that you've lost the
ability to stand on your own. 


I am so happy for you. Keep on leaning on Me. I will never, ever let you fall down.
I am your backbone. I am your support. I am your mind. I speak through you.
We are so intertwined that there is no way to separate Us. That makes Me even
happier for We are One. We are One forever...not just in the Spirit. Because you've
touched My Heart by just being you, I have shared My Blood with you. We are blood
brothers, My Friend...Blood Brothers.


You only have a slight sense of what this means. In time, it will become clearer.
You will see exactly what I mean. Everyone will know you are My True Friend.I will
say no more for you'll be putting words in My Mouth and be mad at Me when these
words of yours do not materialize. You know exactly what I mean.
So, rest for a while in My Love. We will talk again.


                I CARRY THIS HURT, SCARED CHILD OUT OF YOU


In the light of day, the negative spirits who have gathered within while you sleep
bring with them feelings of desolation and loneliness. I know those feelings quite
well for I experienced them in the Agony in the Garden.

My Child, now you know the loneliness I feel as I yearn for wandering souls to return
Home to Me. The feelings pull you down and create a dull pain in your gut. Be of good
heart, My Friend. I do not wish those feelings to linger within you for I know the pain
associated with them. 

Anyone who has felt abandoned - especially by loved ones - knows this pain intimately.
So, for now, close your eyes and rest in My Spirit of love as I gently ease your pain from
deep within your soul.


I place My Hand into the deepest part of your being and slowly, gently carry this hurt,
scared spirit out of you to My Sacred Heart. It is nothing more than a scared child who,
crying out for nurturance from his loving mother is left crying and crying and crying.

Come to Me, you sad and desolate infant. Let Me nurture you. Let Me give you the love
you so desperately seek. Oh, My Little One, I am so sorry it hurts so much. Here. Let Me
nestle you to My Chest so that you can hear My Heartbeat. 


Does that not sound familiar? Does that not awaken memories within you when I was
there for you? Come. Let Me cherish your being. Let Me cuddle you and warm your cold
heart. So be it! 

Rest in My Love for a while longer as the ministering of My Sacred Heart takes hold within
you. See, I really do love you, My Friend.


                                                      INFINITE LOVE
 

There are no words to express My Infinite Love for you. It is simply something
you experience in living your life with Me as your Lord. There are so many shades of
My Love - so many combinations of feelings - so many permutations of inner thoughts -
so many variations of outcomes as My Love directs your actions in your life. 


There are no certainties, only that I love you and I am always here - deep within your
soul - and I surface on an as-need basis to right wrongs, to heal hurts, and to share love.
That is My Way, My Friend. I am totally unpredictable for I am God the Father. I am Jesus.
I am the Holy Spirit. As your Triune God, we are unpredictable. We are a mystery. 


The mystery rests on the fact that human beings do not understand one-tenth of one
percent of how I love. They relate love to immediate satisfaction and gratification.
My Love goes well beyond immediate. It is eternal. Sometimes, there is immediate
gratification. Sometimes, there is pain and growth. Sometimes, there is emptiness as
I leave you on your own to grow as I wish you to grow. 


Yes, love is a decision. It is a mutual decision made consciously and unconsciously by
you throughout life. Sometimes, you follow through on your decision. Other times, you
do not. The mutual part is what counts. 


I have decided to love you. That decision is infinite. It is filled with all the ramifications
of eternity. It is a decision that never wavers. It is always - in all ways. In addition,
I always follow through on My Love Decision, even if it does not feel like it. My Love
does not depend on feelings. It is there through emptiness. It is there through fullness.
It is there in all the variations in between.


For those who think Me a gushy lover, you are right and wrong at the same time. I do
share My Love emotionally at times and, at times, when it is in your best interests, I give
My Love, but you may not be aware of it. That is the way I am.

For those who think I am untouchable, you are right and wrong at the same time. I
touch you more often than you can ever presume to touch Me. I let you experience
Me as I choose. I come to you where, when, and how I choose. Once you are touched
by Me, you constantly seek to touch Me. 


You can never experience Me, unless I will it to be so. So, I am untouchable by you at
your discretion, but I certainly touch you any time I will to do so. For those who think
I am a set of cerebral premises and treatises to be argued and defended, you are wrong.
You can never, ever understand Me intellectually. This is tantamount to seeking after
the Tree of Knowledge. Adam and Eve sought to do this. They sought to be God. Look
what happened to them.


You can only come to know My Love by seeking Me with your HEART and choosing Me
with your free will over and over in life. Then, and only then, My Love will surface from
within your being for I live within you. As you love Me, so I shall love you. As you choose
to come to Me, so I shall enable you to experience more and more of My Infinite Love.
You will never understand it with your intellect. You must live it with your heart.


Jesus To John Palmer
PERFECT&INFINITE LOVE